There is not always a choice. We tell it to our friends, our children, our Christian brothers & sisters: “You always have a choice.” It’s a disciplinary strategy, a way to keep us from making excuses, a way to take responsibility. But it’s not true. There is not always a choice. For me, there was […]


Delight, Mental Illness

August 8, 2017

When You Did Not Have a Choice

There are moments that I don’t know why I am where I am. I don’t know why I’m at this school so far from my family, taking classes that often feel irrelevant; working towards a major I’m no longer certain of and a future I don’t know how to bring into existence. Moment by moment […]


Mental Illness, Spiritual Growth

June 23, 2017

When You Don’t Know Where You’re Headed

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There is a reason why I don’t talk about God very much when I talk about mental illness. I think it’s because I’ve felt its sting myself. On hard days—days where panic rose in surges like a loose wire inside my chest, where I felt as though something inside my head had caved in and […]


Heavy Struggles, Mental Illness

January 11, 2017

When You Feel Abandoned by God

To the girl who faces mental illness every day: You are not alone. I have been in your shoes. I have walked this road my whole life, and I have fought that battle to get out of bed in the morning, to stand through the trembling anxiety, to keep breathing when depression wanted to strangle […]


Mental Illness

November 7, 2016

To The Girl Facing Mental Illness Every Day

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This post originally appeared on TWLOHA’s blog. (View it here.) Dear friend, I know how you’re feeling. I know the exhaustion that stretches across your skin and the emptiness returning to your chest after a long year. It has been a long one. You’ve survived so much. I know you want to huddle in bed right […]


Mental Illness

September 13, 2016

You Are Not Your Pain: A Letter to Myself